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y must it end like this?:(

2009-08-27T18:05:00.000-07:00

pu3 al shamirah,u and me were so in love and u ended our relationship..u did not juz ended our realtionship,u also ended my heartbeat too.
i cant breathe without u.
i cant live without u.
i need u here right beside me so tat i can hug u.
i love u too much,tats y its hard 4 me 2 let go of u.
its nt easy 2 let go of someone i really love.
it feels like my heart is stabbed by knife tat cuts right through me.
cant u c tat i really love u.
plz give me 1 last chance:(

pu3 al shamirah,i need u here..im starting 2 miss u so much:(

2009-08-26T18:27:00.000-07:00

pu3,plz 4give me..im sorie about everyting ive done.
i knoe i was wrong,i should not hv played behind ur back.
im sorie
im sorie
im sorie
im so sorie:(
i really regret 4 wat ive done,
bcoz of my stupidity,i lost someone i love.
i need u here,right beside me.
so tat i can hug u tight lyke how i used to.
i miss the time we watch movie 2gether,it was the best day i ever had.
n i really cherish it.
when u hold my hand,i can feel tat u love me.
when u hug me,i can feel tat u love me more then anyting else.
plz give me 1 last chance,im sorie.
plz 4give me.
i cant take another day without u here.

i still love u:(

2009-08-20T18:38:00.000-07:00

I was really pondering about what went wrong the last time we chatted. I wasn't really expecting that sudden burst of emotion from you and perhaps I might have come on a bit too strong for you, that somewhere down the line, you found yourself hanging on a thread line and I was there pushing it even more harder ready to snap. I am so sorry if you've interpret it that way.I just want to let you know that you are the gerl that approached me the way that you did the first time we met. And although it was only a casual meeting u everyday, I guess, I did not take advantage of you, by playing with words. I have been very careful with my messages and that's the way I was hoping that you've known me. I perfectly understand the way you feel and I take the privilege by putting your trust in me. To be honest with you, I found you to be a very interesting woman with a kind heart and that's the way I started to feel some affection towards you from the start. That feeling even grows fonder, until I found myself longing for you. I thought it was only a fling between two lonely people who longed for special affection, caring and attention. But it was becoming different as the days passed by. I started to fall in love with you! You let me fall in love with you; your kindness, warmth, sweetness, respect, and trust in me was there ... until that thing happened that Tuesday and then you shut me completely out! And I feel sorry for myself, so sorry because what I know was that I just want to make you happy. I have no intention of playing words with you whatsoever, but perhaps, I was wrong!Pu3 Al Shamirah, I am so sorry if I hurt your feelings that night and if you feel that I don't have any respect towards you, but perhaps there was a misconception. I won't try to win back your affection. This is not giving up but I am giving you a free thought of what happened.Thanks for the happy memories, I will cherish them, I won't forget you! As ever,and i still love u!

this gerl

2009-07-23T20:19:00.000-07:00

my special bestfren

her name is syazwani

a true fren is someone who is always there right by each other side

i love her even if shes far from me:)

i will do this 4 the one and only gerl i love:)

2009-07-23T18:24:00.000-07:00

i will kiss her in the movies
i will hug her when shes sad
i will be right by her side even if im far a distance
i will keep her in my heart 4ever
kiss under the rain
everday i reminds her how much i deeply love her
during her birthday i wake up in the morning 2 wish her a happy birthday
give her a anyting she wants
bring her for a walk at nite

ADIILAH i hope u read this:(

2009-07-20T18:22:00.000-07:00

Everyday i wake up
hoping to get a fresh start
praying i can undo
the mistakes i've done to u.

Everyday its the same thing,
my memories come to haunt me.
I never knew it would come to this
and i know im regretting it.

Basically im saying sorry..
sorry for my stupidity..
If u find it in your heart to forgive me,
I thank you will my full sincerity.

But if u find it too hard to do so,
Its all right,who can blame u??
If theres even anyone to blame,its me..
me and my stupidy.

and the last thing i want to say to u is im really2 sorry.

i hope tat u will forgive me:(

issit juz ntg or am i falling in love??

2009-06-05T07:32:00.000-07:00

I see her every day in school,shes pertty and cute.she's not the same class as me so its hard for me to get to knoe her more.
my fren says she's a quiet person but i dun knoe if its true or not..
And she should be able to notice me.But somehow out of her busy schedule,she finds the time not to open her eyes and see.
she did once talk to me,But her eyes filled with questioning,
Does she do this on purpose?Or is she just to blind to see?My head says I should forget her but my heart says she belongs to me and we are meant to be together.
how should i say my feelings to her???
i really do love her..

2009-06-02T06:07:00.000-07:00

I have admired you from far
I don’t know how to confess my feelings that i have for u
A rejection will also leave me a deep scar.
u are the only one that can heal my broken heart
whenever ur right beside me,my heart skips a beat.
i can feel that ur the right one,the one ive been searching for..
the only gerl that i will ever think of is u.
u make me wish upon the stars that someday i can be whenever u are.

finally i have gotten over it:))

2009-05-27T04:45:00.000-07:00

since the day my gerlfren left me,im always sad...but it took me for a week 2 get over her..

:))

2009-05-27T04:38:00.000-07:00

hey i cant believe it,im falling in love again..well we juz only met once and i started 2 have feelings for her..shes from the same skool as me but not the same class..haha but nvm..

okie till here
bye:)

i had enough!!

2009-05-20T07:25:00.000-07:00

sudah cukup sampai disini..

da lah jangan menangis lagy.

satu hari u akan jumpe teman yg sejati.

hati i bukan untok u.

im sorie..

i knoe its painful deep inside,

but plz tetap bertahan untok i..

i wan u 2 go and move on.

gdbye.

i love u

2009-05-20T07:23:00.000-07:00

I never was struck before that hour
With love so sudden and so sweet.
Her face it bloomed like a sweet flower
And stole my heart away complete.

My face turned pale, a deadly pale.
My legs refused to walk away,
And when she looked what could I ail
My life and all seemed turned to clay.

And then my blood rushed to my face
And took my eyesight quite away.
The trees and bushes round the place
Seemed midnight at noonday
.
I could not see a single thing,
Words from my eyes did start.
They spoke as chords do from the string,
And blood burnt round my heart.

Are flowers the winter's choice
Is love's bed always snow
She seemed to hear my silent voice
Not love appeals to know.

I never saw so sweet a face
As that I stood before.
My heart has left its dwelling place
And can return no more.

2009-05-16T07:19:00.000-07:00

Our friendship is lyke an ocean, stretchingFar and wideNever ending Filled with memories That last a lifetime
You've always known Just what to say You were always there, When I needed you the most
When I needed A shoulder to cry on Yours was always waiting
When I needed Someone to talk to You were there Just listening
When I needed Someone to hug Your arms were Doors wide open to me Our friendship's Just like the Stars Both go beyond Man's reach All of the giggles we shared Let the salty taste of tears Run down our cheeks All the Laughs,The smiles,The hugs and the inside jokes..

a true fren

2009-05-16T07:11:00.000-07:00

There is this girl, She means the world to meAlthough it is hard to explain, I really wish she could seeThat when I had not a reason to go onShe came into my life, Picked me up and made me strongAlthough I fell down every now and thenShe still was near, as my one true friendWe knew each other heart to heartWithout saying a word we were never apartI always wanted to tell her, my one true friendMy whole life's story I thought could never endBut then one day she fell down tooI thought I was done for, I didn't know what to doI could see the pain in here eyes,As she tried not to cryEveryday she came with a smile on her faceBut I still could tell it was all fakeShe tried to smile, but i still could seeThe pain inside of her was becoming apart of meShe was full of secrets, just as IAnd tried to cover up all the lil' liesWhat was wrong, I had not a clueI wanted to be there through and throughYes I was bleeding, yes I did cryBut I could see she was bleeding more and needed someone by her sideSo I stood near, just as she once stood for meI wanted to be there, and wanted her to seeThat no matter what went down or what went wrongI would always be there with an ear to listen to her songA song about life, a song about loveA song about anything, whatever it wasCuz in the end after all that was saidI would still be there for my one true friend.

haiz..2day is damn boring

2009-05-14T23:50:00.000-07:00

argh 2day is soooooo boring..'

actually 2day class start at 10pm but i came early..

i came early 2 c the track and field..

2day i cant even smile.

usually i smile cuz adilah is there 2 make me laugh

but 2day she didnt come..

when shes not here with me,i felt alone with no one 2 talk to..

okae till here

it all start lyke this..

2009-05-12T07:49:00.000-07:00

on the first day of skul,actually at first i was nervous 2 knal2 with all my new frens..then i met someone named adilah,haha she is sweet,kind,helpful,sometimes childish,can say she is cute,quite pretty,and she got the avril lavigne looks and she knows how 2 make me laugh..

And im very happy to have a fren lyke her.

Best friends we are ,Best friends we'll be,For always forever,You and Me!

u might think im a quite person but actually im not..im someone who lykes 2 laugh and make jokes that is after u knoe me very well hahaha:))

hmmm did i 4got something??

haha i 4got 2 tell u my other frens..

this is my other frens:syakinah,diyana,amalya and shikin..

they are also very kind 2 me

this is 4 my new frens

Thanx for being my fren,i really appreaciate it:))

:))

2009-05-06T06:59:00.000-07:00

words starts with ABC

numbers starts with 123

love starts with u and me.

Now i knoe who i was suppose 2 be with and she is my close fren, ive been waiting her 4 so long and now that i get my chance,i wont lose her again..

im building up my strength juz to say 2 her that im deeply in love with her.

okae until here byes

baby,im so movin on!

2009-05-02T06:41:00.000-07:00

y would i wan 2 be sad 4 u,im still hv a long way 2 go..im leaving u 4ever and never will come back.
hope tat u will be happy with who ever u love.

broken hearts and last gdbyes

restless nights but lullabies

Every step I'm taking Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

And I, I got to be strong

im happy as long as i knoe tat syazwani is still there right by my side

if she leave me,then idk wat else 2 do.

okae until here

byes

2009-04-28T19:20:00.000-07:00

MARLIANA,I LOVE U AND I MISS U SO MUCH..I HOPE WE CAN BE TOGETHER LYKE LAST TYME..I MISS ALL THE PRECIOUS MOMENTS I HAVE WITH U.

U ARE MY ONLY ONE,U ARE MY EVERYTHING.

MY LOVE IS FOR NO ONE OTHER THEN U..

I WILL GIVE U ALL MY LOVE.

PROMISE TAT U WILL NEVER LEAVE ME AND MY HEART MY HEART WONT BLEED.

MARLIANA,

I LOVE U!

I LOVE U 4EVER!!

theres no one can replace u..

2009-04-24T21:46:00.000-07:00

i wont find someone else 2 replace u,i will wait 4 u...i will keep u in my heart 4ever..i hope one day u n me will be 2gether again..

y must it be lyke this..

2009-04-24T21:30:00.000-07:00

marliana plzz terima lah i kembali,i syg sangat kau u..i tknak cari pompan laen,i wan 2 be with u 4ever...plz i hope u accept me back

bullet for my valentine

2009-04-17T22:24:00.000-07:00

i wont 4get tat day:)

2009-04-10T22:32:00.000-07:00

yesterday i went yishun 2 pick marliana up,then we go 2 causeway point 2gether..we went 2 causeway point 2 watch movie the fast n the furious 4,the movie was awesome but alot of sensord scenes..haha
i really hope tat we could hangout again

till here

im not alright

2009-04-02T23:07:00.000-07:00

u are the remedy tat its hard 2 find,2 fix the puzzle tat i c inside,painting all my dreams the colour of your smile...If you want the truth I need to confess I’m not alright, I’m broken inside
And all I go through, it leads me to you Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
Until everything I hide behind is gone
And when I’m open wide
With nothing left to cling to
Only you are there to lead me on.Honestly, I’m not that strong.I’m not alright… that’s why I need you.
arghh although i knoe i really cant do it,i still have 2 say my feelings 2 hazyra..no matter wat.
i knoe she will never lyke me.
but i juz hope tat she will lyke me
since the first i saw u,i knoe ur the gerl ive been wanting all this time and ur something special..
i knoe tat her fren hazira hates me so much..
although how much she hates me, she is still my fren,i wont hate her..
i wont give up...

till here

argh i hate 2day!!!!

2009-04-01T21:52:00.000-07:00

its lyke this,i went 2 lot 1 2 meet my members...they heavent changed a bit siak,haha except for marx he has change alot..he start 2 style his hair n do stuff lyke i have seen him done tat before.
the truth is im in a bad mood right now,i shouldnt have said tat 2 her..i really regret 4 saying tat she is not trustworthy.she is helping me 2 get hazyra,but wat did i do?? i did not trust her...hazira im really sorie,i shouldnt have said tat 2 u..im willing 2 do anything juz 2 get hazyra 2 lyke me..

till here

bye

hmmm 2dae..

2009-03-31T04:46:00.000-07:00

2day is the same as usual hanging out at lot 1 with saiful...saiful met a new gerl named diana,shes one of hazyra frens..at first he was so damn shy.he kept asking me 2 do it but i dun wan...da bape lame baru dier tanye sendiri..haha kelakar siol lari lari round library cari dier man maen catching.
as 4 me i still dun knoe how 2 say my feelings 2 her..
i hope i can do it.
but i dun tink i can.
perhaps nextime i hangout with her then i might say 2 her.
hope she will accept me:))

till here

haha

2009-03-30T21:25:00.000-07:00

yesterday i went out with hazyra n her frens..waa her fren hazira ask me 2 go alone..wat the!!
although it was quite boring,i had fun cuz i get 2 hangout with hazyra..

haha same as usual

2009-03-29T04:54:00.000-07:00

2day at 2pm i went 2 the gym 2 train,waa my coach dun even give me a break...im so tired n exausted..i train at the gym until 5pm.then after tat i change and go home.i walk out the gym then suddenly it rains heavily.haish y didnt i bring an umbrella.so i waited 4 the rain 2 stop,i wait and i wait and i wait...the rain still raining heavily,i got no choice but 2 go.

the second part

2009-03-28T06:47:00.000-07:00

i saw this sec 1 gerl,shes is sooo cute and pretty..then i follow her 2 the childrens section,i wanted 2 ask her 4 her number but i a little shy so i ask my fren 2 help me..i gave my fren a paper 2 give 2 the gerl..then after he gave it 2 her,she msg me saying tat is her number..it was kinda funny cuz i keep running away from her.
i knoe,they tink im a quiet person..2 tell u the truth i didnt say a thing cuz we juz only met..once they noe me then they will knoe tat im not tat kind of person..
btw i wan 2 thank saiful 4 helping me,thanx sai:))
ur a real fren..

im gonna leave the past in the past n gonna find the future

2009-03-28T00:02:00.000-07:00

although my heart is still bleeding,but wat can i do??life still have 2 go on..
it all happen so suddenly,i and saiful was hanging out at lot 1 then we dun knoe where 2 go so we decided 2 go 2 the library..at first we were walking and walking and walking but then something caught my attention..

2 be continued coz im using the library computer

byee

hmmmm

2009-03-25T23:12:00.000-07:00

hmmm how should i start,aaaah yeah..now i knoe,2day is the same lyke usual..in the morning i go jogging then skating then its time 4 work..although its kind of boring,i still have 2 work.
then after work i usually go 2 the playcraft 2 play mortal combat vs dc universe..

haish i got nothing else 2 say:)

2009-03-22T06:59:00.000-07:00

i give her all my love..
i love her more then anything
i ignore every gerl cuz i wanted 2 be with her 4ever.
i kept her in my heart..
but y must she find other guys
i trust her when she say she wants to be happy with me
she say no other guys except me

everything she say 2 me is juz a lie
i love her for nothing:(

i dun knoe wat else 2 do..

2009-03-22T01:55:00.000-07:00

i tried all tat i could 2 show tat i really love syazwani...but all tat she could say is i dun feel any love from u..isnt tat sad right:(
actually i've been planning 2 bring her 2 a very special place,i wan 2 surprise her..but then its too late.
she left me with tears..
i hope one day she would realize how much i deeply love her..
i will wait n wait until she finally love me again

i really regret 4 not telling her tat i wanted 2 bring her 2 the special place..if i did tell her then she will wait 4 me..but i keep it a secret cuz i wanted 2 surprise her

SYAZWANI I REALLY LOVE U!!

PLZ GIVE ME ONE LAST CHANCE..